.gloomy days without my bhezt.

.i'm having such bad days lately.maybe it's not seen at school but often times i'm just bursting it out here at my blog.just like my previous blog.i've been talking about my best friend.we've been like encountering lotsofproblems lately as if we're in a boy and girl relationship.ghadd!hate it so much.we've been like arguing most of times.it's either i miss interpret him or probably like vice-versa.i don't want to disturb my baby bes anymore since he's hpee with his girl friend right now.which made me feel a little relieved since i know how much he loves her and at least now there are less worries so i don't want to be his worries this time.i know i really love my bhezt.though there are years and times when we don't communicate or less communication happens but as long as i know i have a best friend like him i'm really grateful.i feel like i have my big brother.who worries.cares.and loves me more than any of my friends does.i really really treasure him so much and i always does.but lately.it seems that we're having many gloomy days.i don't talk to him right now at least i'll try to find myself first.and try to live like he doesn't exist but the thing is.can i really overcome this?can i really live like he doesn't belong here in the world?i wish i could.but sometimes i think i can't.that's my weakness.haii.i miss my bhezt.

.why do i have to choose?

.how many best friends do u have?i just hate the fact why do we have to state how many they are.do we really have to choose between our best friends?does the word "best friend" only means u only have 1 best friend?i really didn't get the point.grr.damn it.u might be wondering why this thing just pops here.i have my bhezt.we've been best friends for 4yrs now.imagine.how long that 4yrs is?and then.i also have my baby bes.we've been like best friend for 3yrs now.isn't also long?then for some jealousy my bhezt just then asked me to like choose between them.though, he doesn't said that to me directly but that's the thought of it.so i just don't appreaciate it since he knows that i'm not good at decision making.my bhezt and baby bes are gud friend.they belong to one group so they bond a lot.then he will ask me to choose.damn.what' wrong with him?but i really appreciate my baby bes since he told me that it's okay for him to give up our 3yrs of being best friends just to let my friendship with my bhezt to stay longer and he also said that nothing will change.it doesn't matter whether we called bes or not.it's about how much we trust.love.and care each other.isn't touching?hai.i know.this is like comparing them.but i can't helped it.it's just mean.

.happiest day for 3rd yr.

.today is the last day of our unit teast which made me really hpee.at least all the days of those review stuffs are done.though i really didn't review.hahaha.since we are half day to day.magdaLene people decided to have some malLing stuffs which will be the celebration of partoza's birthday.i really enjoi celebrating her birthday a lot.the very 1st thing we did this morning is to sing a very happy birthday song to her and there are lots of picture takings too instead of studying.haha.that's what i badly miss at bL. magdaLene.we ate at shakey's.since we are 10 people so we expected to have a big bill.haha.and we really do ate a lot.no doubt abt it.haha.after than we watched "get smart".it's really a very funny movie.so love it so much.action comedy type.and since we are very plenty.i really enjoy it since we're together all the way.hehe.and so we decided to go to pixie after the movie.some rode the fun mouse but as for us, we just played basketball.haha.as usual.that's our favorite game.and there are lots of picture takings too.hehe.and finally.we decided to have the actual picture taking at the studio.which really made me laugh since there are lots of side comments which is kinda common to them.hehe.we also went to xsite.haha.i finally saw a very kawaii guy.he's wearing a pink polo yet he does have earrings.but that's fine with me.haha.he really is very handsome.my my.he really completes my day.haha.den some of us left.like thet.te jo.wild boyz[as they call themselves].marco.laine.and sel.so again.it's the 4 of us again who were left.we played basketball again.kinda a contest and for those who will get the lowest score will be punished.haha.we also bough a tee for jervs since he's asking for sum advice about clothing[feeling fashion experts.haha.] and we bought drinks at tokyo tokyo.it's like around 6:15pm when we decided to leave and go home.that's the new record this year.the latest ever.haha.my feet aches.but i really enjoyed it.wat a fulfilLing and exciting day.hpee bdhei partotz.

.best friend?

.this thing just bothers me quiet a lot lately.i have thsi best friend.he'so nice and has been my best friend for almost 4 yrs now.we've been to lots of arguements and misundestandings a lot.but this yr.it just happened that we're classmates.after 4yrs, we're now together again in one classroom.which kinda makes me feel awkward.i know it's my fault of not talking to him or approaching him.but looks like we're both pre-occupied inside the room.and we doesn't look like best friends after all.the only thing you can see us is like a president and treasurer talking.grr.i just hate that thing.he doesn't even text me.and this thing even made me annoys.he texted like a friend of mine.and he will just text me about projects or assignments.or anything bout school.grrr.i really.really hate it.i don't wanna give up or friendship.maybe my baby bes is right.only time can tell.

.home sick.

.it's been like 2weeks since our class starts.but still.i'm not used at being part of st.nicholas.i'm badLy home sick.i miss magdaLene.all their kLandian and stuffs.though i can say that nicholas is a very happy class coz everyone loves to laugh.and so far.the bond between one another is starting which is good since sooner or later.we will be as one.but the thing is.sometimes.it's kinda our of place.the noise isn't should be there.and the major thing is.being the president.damn!everytime i remember that i'm the president of the class.i just badly feel bad.duh?it's really a big responsibility.u have to do this and that.and if u're class is noisy.u will be the one who will be scolded first.the teachers will always ask the president.damn!i hate the president thing.i just wanted to be like the others.who does what they wanted to.go out like nobody cares.wanna be like.what i am when i'm still in magdalene.without any pressure from the adviser and classmates.haii.i really have to spill it out here.i just wanna clarify.i don't hate nicholas.it's just that.i haven't move on yet.and i feel like.i'm still dreaming.

.braces.

.after weeks.finalLy.the day has finalLy arrived.i'M now wearing bRaces.both the uppEr and loweR one.so which means.it badLy aches.daMn hate it!this is just my 2nd day.and i realLy can stilL feeL the paiN.it just made me feeL bad more.siNce i haven't sLept welL last night due to this braces which badLy aches last night.i wouLd like to take it off for the mean time just for me to get some sLeep but i can't.then.next week.my doctor wilL add rings.whatever.one thing's for sure.it wilL just further give me such pain that i don't want to encounter.welL.that's what you calL sarcrifice.i hope this will onLy be for two weeks.coz it realLy aches a lot.and i can't eat any solids.i realLy envy to those people at home whom eat what they want.huhuhu.that's alL for now.

.first week as 3rd yr hs.

.this week is our first week being third yr students.i'm quite excited being with my new section since i still have maggie.jervz.seL.cess.zing.drehya.and.dous.people who are really close to me since they are my classmate before.and i also have some of my close friends from before.so they are not new to me.hehe.but.i didn't expect that during our 2nd day we will be having tons of homeworks.duh?it's really hard having those homeworks.particularly our homework at geometry.grrr.so hate it.it's really long.and there are really lots of assignments for the other subjects as well.so it just made me feel very mad.and pressured as well.and for next week.there will be lots of quizzes and reportings.and that's what i badly hate.reportings already?isn't a bit early?grrr.why?why?first week is really bad.i hate the homeworks.quizzes.and even recitation.so mean.that's all i can say as of now.hehe.