.bes?i wonder.

.my.my.i've been at the hospital today to visit my bes.and i wonder why i can't even talk to him.i wonder why i feel so awkward when he's around.i'm not like this before.but then it just happen.i really care for him and i do love him.he's my bes afterall but then.guess what.if u ware to ask him whose the better bes between me and the other.he will rather choose the other.lets just call her flirt.well.maybe bcoz he loves flirt but then i can't blame him.i can't even show to him how much i value him.i'm not as expressive as flirt.i'm not like her who always go to the hospital and just really care for him.and i wanna change that attitude of mine towards him.i might be the last option but then as long as i can still pretend that i don't know his answer towards that i will try my best to show him that i'll always be here.i'm not a perfect bes just like the others.i'm mean.i'm bad.i'm insensitive.and if ever he wanted to give up this friendship.i will just strongly accept his decision for i will respect it whole heartedly for i know its my fault why this friendship isn't working anymore.

.for the bicth girl i know.

.i hate you.err.and i really mean it.my gosh.how many times to you have to let my bes feel like you love him though i don't think u really are.can u stop showing that u're concern and you love him if you don't feel the same thing.my bes is really hurt with those actions of yours that you kept on showing to him.i know.my bes loves u.he really do.he even can wait for you until such time that u and ur boyfriend will break up.but then.do you really have plans of breaking up with him?i thought u love my bes but why are u doing this to him?she's still ur bes after all.don't u know that he is really wounded by now.he's sick physically.emotionally.and i know he's tired of waiting for u.but then what u always do is just to show that u care.u love him.and the rest.showing like u are in a boy-girl relationship though u're not.errr.stop being a flirt bitch!cut-it-off.u're so mean.i know i'm mean and unfair to my bes which is ur bes as well.but hurting him without u realizing what u are doing is much more unfair and with this he's badly waiting for u to finally realize that u will choose him over ur boyfriend.but would u do that?i bet u won't.you're afraid of loosing sum1 ryt?that's why u can't let go either ur bes or ur bf.my.my.i really do hate u.don't wanna see u at school.wana drag u down and put you face to the ground and let u realize that choosing among the 2 is the best thing to do.damn.maybe i'm jealous for my bes loves u but u're not deserving of his love.other girls deserves his love more.not a bicth like u!get lost bitch!

.thoughts.thoughts.

.hai.i badly missed doing some blogging.I've been busy lately that's why i've been out for like years.haha.but then.hmmm..this blog entry might be about confusions in life.well.i can say that my 3rd yr life is ol about confusions.hmmm.most probably about frienship.err.i've been encountering lots of problems regarding this one.and it just badly disappoint me.but then.life still goes on and the world doesn't stop from rotating right?i've been like thinking about what do you think is the importance of a bes?err.is is ohwkie if ur the last option as long as both of u are still bes?what about the pride and many egos?err.i really hate this topic.just wanna open it here it my blog.tired of thinking about it.and so tired of seeing flirt girls around.when i mean about flirt.yes.they really are the ones who just can't be contented with only 1 but then they choose to have 2 or more.err.now i've finally prove that not only guys are the flirty ones but same is to the girls.err.